I heard a woman speak last night and I honestly feel like everything she said God was telling her is exactly what God is telling me. She spoke of her dreams and how she wanted to work for a fashion magazine. Through the years she began to give her heart to God, her dream of working for a fashion magazine was still there but she was beginning to have bigger dreams. One day she got the opportunity to either work for a famous photographer or work for a church and help organize mission teams. She surrendered and gave up her old dream for the dream God was instilling in her. Once she began doing mission work she fell in love with the places and the people. She wanted to stay in Mozambique, Africa forever because she could see miracles happening every day and she felt so close to God there. She felt like He was speaking to her like never before there. When she asked God if she could stay He said no. He said you have to go back to reality so that I can grow you and grow your faith for you to walk out this dream.
Isn't it funny how God knows what is best for us? I have had so many dreams. Dreams of getting married by the time I am 24 (got two years to go haha), dreams of being an occupational therapist, dreams of having a family......those dreams are still there but they are being outshined by crazy impossible dreams that God has placed in my life. Dreams that I think about and wonder how will this ever come true. When will I ever get to go back to Africa? How will I ever have the money or the resources to start a clinic in Africa? Will I ever have the guts or money to adopt children from Africa? The funny thing is I always ask these questions but I have never asked why not now. I know I am waiting, but waiting for what?
The truth is I am in my reality looking eagerly at my dreams because God is growing me. Growing me as a person, growing my faith, and quite possibly growing my dreams. I am in this reality because my dreams are not ready to be reality in my life right now.
Until that that reality comes, I will keep dreaming.
