And His Glory Appears Like The Light From The Sun

The past month of my life has not been what I would call "my best days".  I had finally graduated school with my Masters and all that was left was to pass my boards.  I knew God had my future in His hands so of course I was beyond devastation when I found out I did not pass. I had a day to think about it and then I picked myself up and told myself God had a reason for all of this and I just needed to trust Him.

Trust....such a small word, yet one of the hardest things to do.  Over the next few weeks I would definitely begin to understand the meaning of Trust in God.

Shortly after finding out about the test, I went home to be with my family and start preparing and packing for the cruise we were about to go on to celebrate my graduation.  My dad had not been feeling  so well but we were praying that God would heal him and rest and relaxation in the Caribbean would do him some good.  We were wrong.  The day we went to port was an exceptionally bad day for him and so we called it quits and decided it might not be the smartest thing to do to get on a boat and sail across the ocean if you don't feel too well.  We drove all night and made it back home and within three days dad was admitted to the hospital.  Thank God we did not get on that boat!

After many tests they finally discovered what was wrong with my dad and did surgery to fix the problem.  It became clear that he was going to be out of commission for awhile and since my sister had to go back to New Jersey and my mom back to work, I was going to be the one to stay home and take care of him.

God really is great!  At that moment I realized if I had passed my test then I would be having to head to work now too, but instead I got to spend some wonderful time with my dad!  My family has always been a close one but these past two weeks I really got to spend some quality father daughter time and really got to see how wonderful of a man my dad is. God allowed my dad to turn into a daddy again and steal my heart all over again! 

I was walking early one morning and I was watching the sun rise and the song His Glory Appears by Hillsong came on and the lyrics 

"And His glory appears 

Like the light from the sun 

Age to age he shines 

Look to the skies 

Hear the angels cry 

Singing holy is the Lord" 

really touched me.  I finally realized how much God loves me! He has a magnificent plan for each and everyone of His children.  His plan more than often does not match up with mine, but look at the wonderfulness that comes from His plan. Look how He can turn a devastating situation into something so sweet and beautiful. We just have to remember to TRUST that He knows what lies ahead and He knows what is best.

It's going to be WILD!

These past few months I have been in a fog, therefore my blogging has been on the back burner!   I have been so focused on trying to get done with school and keeping my eyes on the finish line that I have been walking through my life as if I was a robot.  Get up, go to work, work some, go to lunch, work some more, head home, eat dinner, go to bed, and then get up and start it all over again.


Do you know how many blessings a person can miss when they are walking around as if nothing else existed? Many!  Now that I am done with school (yay finally) and trying to study for my boards and still enjoy summer, I am beginning to realize just how BIG our God is and how much He really does care about me.


God has prepared a beautiful future for me and has faithfully helped me through each and every milestone, but the sad thing is sometimes I do not even notice.  God has gotten me through OT school (with my insanity)!  God has given me beautiful and wonderful friends who encourage me and speak life into me!  And the best thing of all is God has prepared a doorway, okay lets not even say prepared, lets be honest, God swung a doorway wide open for me to have a job doing OT, like I love, but also being able to do OT in Africa!!  How cool is that!  My two biggest passions......all wrapped up in one job!  I was blown away! 


I figured my dreams of doing OT in Africa and hopefully eventually opening up a medical clinic would take years and thousands and thousands of dollars.  I knew it would have to take many people and something really big to make this dream come true.  Boy was I wrong!  Within a few short minutes of me speaking out my passions and dreams.....they were being created into a plan...a real plan that could happen within a year!  HOW BIG IS OUR GOD!!! 


 I was talking to one of my dear friends and telling her the wonderful news and all about where I will be working and how excited I am and I said a few simple words to her that I feel like completely sums up my future......"It's going to be WILD!"  I have no idea what my future holds, except that I have an apartment for another year, and I have a wonderful job doing what I love, other than that who knows....but what I do know is that God is not done with me!  God has just began and if I let him continue to guide me and if I walk the path he has set for me then "It's going to be WILD".  And for once in my life, I think I am a little bit ready for some WILDNESS, GREATNESS, and the UNKNOWN!


God cares....He really does!  So don't walk around like a robot (even though its so hard not too) and miss His plan and His blessings....who knows, maybe your future holds a bit of WILDNESS too!

"Let God Impress You"

As of lately, there have been several things happen in my life.  I am now living with my parents until the end of march while I complete my first 3 month rotation, I am having to start making decisions on where I would like to get a job/where I would like to live, and I am having to remember that God has got all of this planned....I just have to be willing to follow.  Such a scary thing to do sometimes.  

I was talking to an amazing friend the other day and was telling her all about the decisions I was having to make and the fact that I have no idea what I want to do with my life, but how piece by piece God is showing me small puzzle pieces of my life, He is simply handing me joy!  After I told her all of this, I said " I wish everything would just hurry up and be figured out....I am tired of waiting and not knowing what will happen with my life."  To which her response was one of such simplicity but profound none the less.  She said in that sweet wonderful voice, "It seems like God is trying to impress you and show you all that He can do.....why don't you just sit still in the place where you are and let God impress you with his wonderfulness and his love."  

WOW!  What a beautiful phrase!

When I began to think about her response, I thought to myself, "Why would God want to impress me?"  Well why not?  God knows all that is happening in my life and I honestly believe that He gets so excited before revealing another piece to the puzzle.  We know that God loves to love us and bless us, why would he not want to impress us with the wonderfulness that he can give!  

So here I stand humbly before you God, not knowing where my life will end up, but undoubtedly impressed by you!